Pursuing Truth

But God shows his anger from heaven against all sinful, wicked people who suppress the truth by their wickedness. Romans 1:18, NLT

Last night as I read this verse the section that struck out me was "suppress the truth".
This semester God has been challenging my forming of beliefs. More specifically what I believe to be true about him and our relationship with him. The challenge has come in attempting to understand and reconcile what I read in Scripture with my mental and moral constructs. This challenge leads to the question "Am I interpreting this passage correctly or does my lenses of understanding need to change?"

The greatest hindrance in facing this challenge has been my presuppositions and biases. Many of the beliefs I hold as true have come out of an intense wrestling in my being and to cast them aside for others would seem to trivialize the journey thus far. As my beliefs continue to grow and mature my being yearns to avoid "suppressing the truth" out of personal preference or because of persuasive personalities. My desire is for a humility that allows me to be wrong, but does not undermine that I could be right.

As my thinking is molded and refined my desire is avoid forcing what God intends to speak to us into some personal mental framework or place requirements upon God that I have developed from my finite perspective. Thereby mutilating God's message and marring his image. At some point I have to confess that I can never fully comprehend the infinite grandeur of God. While I press on to know God more intimately, I must still leave room for the mystery of the infinite.

My hope is to avoid the accusations of Romans 1:21-22

Yes, they knew God, but they wouldn’t worship him as God or even give him thanks. And they began to think up foolish ideas of what God was like. As a result, their minds became dark and confused. 22 Claiming to be wise, they instead became utter fools.